women's heart

i have searched through my books and the e-world
query is what lies at women's heart

most of the times
my brain retorts back
hell with you
and your science
to know of a non existential entity
i get jostled at the unsavory remarks

when i see the lonely hearts
i often get vacuumed to the same and similar questions
i avoid Kalidas interpretative world
but i hardly stop short of what my stupid brain opines

where is the trigger
i am again coaxed to reply

but suddenly i stop short of the final thesis

reasons are many

may be i avoid truthful interpretations
or is it that i'm too selfish

i avoid
and fall back on praise of words

i recall magnolias
they represent the rosy side of what we happen to see

is it that i am indirectly compelled to accept
what is unpalatable

i ask my black roses
they smile
with gestures
as if i am the biggest fool on the earth

i dare to ask
why
they smile again

this time
i get a glimpse off
probably i am looking for
what is beyond the prohibition psyche
we encounter day by day

i ask and look deep into the black roses
why you'r black and beautiful
is that the combine
you want to avoid to say

they smile
i get a glimpse

but now
i want to avoid

source: shipra.v

PROXY LOVE

I have often wondered
why love is not two way emotions pathway
i ask too much
get a little reply
from either side

i come home
heart looks for
what probably is not there
i convice it a lot
but things remains
every eve
i drop at the door steps

what causes so unparallel
i struggle hard

i was moving to my room
before i asked many times
petunias with colours lit large
over the shades
rajpath pathway
my everyday love lorn
i look around
as if someone of them
at the least
break the long drawn silence

another day
it will
or may not at all

but i have to
so are they with their beauty

but why beauty is too exotic to me
i ask again

my black roses smile from the thin air

love is often
what lies under the thin layer
difficult to realise
less responded
often forgotten
ignored at the least

i stare at them

source: shipra.v