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today i was busy with my friends at lunch hrs
my defence canteen cum mess was tuned to an old melody:
it meant something like this
" i've sent you my love
dried flowers in a book
but it's more live to what you can visualize
it speaks of my heart
the depth of which: you may ignore to visualize"
-my friends know that i simply hate old songs
-but this time
the diff fetched their surprize
-i simply rebuffed
you see
change is the nerve centre of Nature
-they smiled with a disbelief and disgust
but i knew: a lot was yet to be said:
probably my heart takes light years to come off
-i often wonder
if love is that beautiful
or that magnetic
-i know
its bubbles
like at a long and slow rainy day
-but my heart gets provoked at unsavoury remarks of my brain
it just said: fools never realize that they are indeed fool
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, kan, shipra, aish, pu chd
CONFLICT surrounds me
-where i go
it catches fast
-i hardly accept
the religious recluse
it evokes more smoke
i'm used to a clear sky
may be too scorching
the soul gets burnt up
and the brain
looks for a solution
howsoever ephemeral
-it may be
-day and night
i aspire for my love
-she a too unpredictable
but with a bounty of elixir
put off
the hell of fire
within me
around me
-she came one day with a tight schedule
time and space was her priority
-i went to my bot gardens
showed her beautiful ROUWOLFIAS
-i was yet to explain a lot
she said:hell with your sciences
say something romantic
-i paused for a moment
and explained
their love is too tender
like you
like your time
she got a bit interested
and i explained if a red light beam interrupts their sleep
you can't see the crimson red flowers
so scintillating to make your beauty look pale
-she got more inquisitive
and me too docile to explain
-i went to a friend's house alongwith her
inspite of our booked time
she couldn't turn up
i waited for whole
and my beauty love was too patient to accopany
-in the eve hrs
she came out of her house
but left without acknowledging our long wait
-i looked deep
as she boarded the bike of her friend
and went with a second
away from our visible range
-my beauty love pulled me up
why you made me to wait for infinite
-i replied
you have to be explained
a bit of Rouwolfias and why they don't flower
-she was sad at my docile nerves
but asked who she was?
-i replied in low refrain
she is navu
who runs the roost of my nerves
-But why? she was restless this time
-i hesitated to say
-she spent her very special moments
with me, along me, around me
-and
-i've still to get out of my addiction
source inpire: kan, navu, pu chd india
'SELF CONFIDENCE AND LEARNING'; Learning process when started from basics with a strong belief that you can do it triggers a chain reaction of metabolism in whole of the body system. This energizes not only the brain faculties but supporting physical strength also increases making one-self to forget the fatigue which often accompanies the learning process.
'SELF CONFIDENCE AND AN INSTITUTION:- Now we are to discuss ultra modern concepts relating to the functioning of an institution. We are going to trigger a plethora of complicated aspects encompassing an institution. An institution is represented by a number of un-related fields of human activities eg. marriage is an institution. A univ, college, laboratory, factory, office is another aspect of institution ( here the diff of organisation and an institution has been overlooked as the point is beyond the scope of our discussion). Modern life is exhibiting very stark controversies in this spere of life.eg. a political system and administrative system are also another forms of institutions.
Decreased confidence at the unit level leads to less comitment to the system. Less-comitment leads to self-alignment at the individual level. It further leads to less satisfactin level of an individual. Further deterioration leads to individuals living in their own self-made bubbles. Further deterioration leads to depressive feeling at the individual level. When these processes occur in chain reaction the environs of a system start deteriorating. It indirectly affects efficiency, innovation, productivity, evolution of the system; compatibility is the biggest casuality at the onset of loss of self-confidence on individual leve.
HOW TO DEVELOP CONFIDENCE AT INDIVIDUAL LEVEL UNDER THE ENVIORNS OF AN INSTITUTION:-
MACRO LEVEL:- ( to be continued)
probably very miniscule number is there who accept the quotient of stress we have to negotiate in our environs. well escape(ism) is good in psychological parlains but if the things take a neurotic cardinals we need a psychiatric acceptance and live interaction with the people assigned for it. but love! psedo-intellectuals surround us every where we happen to live or thrive a meaningful or otherwise life style.
love is good excuse all the time.
but ground realities are too harsh.
as love seems to be an exotic existential, far more relevant in western driven airy winds.
so do we accept the stupid way of existence as proposed by the orthodox minds around.
may be: it's a personal choice.
but evolve your spirit:
may it be live fantasy
with mallika
but love!
how does it matter
every thin is fine
so far it serves
a useful purpose
and constructive thoughts
you see!
they are acceptable
in life as seen thro' law books
Some jerky moments of the day
nights together
my heart puts me so many queries
in a single breath
is it
her absence
led me realise
the nuances of my love
i suddenly realise
the depth of the Antarctic ocean
biting cold
darkest to the full
but i see a zone of swirling light
emanating from your aura
i get magnatized
leave the whole hell behind
come flying to you
see your love
feel to my nerves
i wonder
is it my zone of love
or a start of
your magnetism
But time makes me realise
you have to leave
negotiate
howsoever predetermined
and pre- destined
i leave, but
my steps are waivy
as i am reaching
a place of conflicts
created by me
your love
and world around
i fall back
on your thoughts
and
hope
it'll fetch me
another solution
for the day
at least
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, cao office mod, ms isha deol, pu chd india
-
Love is a privilege
probably my univ tought me this tender nuance
-but what constitute love
i negotiate
till date
-i cross vijay chowk
in a hurry in morning hrs
but too lazy cozy guy
in eve hrs
-reasons are simple
i have no superior
huanting me at my home
-but is it
love is driven by
conflict model
-my heart retorts
damn fool
how dare you think like this
-i get no jolt
may be i take my heart
for granted too much
-but when i see
the conference hall (Parliament bldg)
my inner half
it quips like a little lad
-hei! love
these guys
attend it
for love sake
-my brain lauhgs
at my stupid nerves
-but it suddenly pauses
i wonder what has happened
-i see many
around me
-but that's too negative
my soul wakes up
i keep my calm
-and my quest
to negotiate love
remains
where it was earlier
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, cao office ministry of defence, ms deol (senior), pu chd
every morning
i start with a new hope
of your love
and gets going
how it be too humble
eve hrs
and my another confront
with my inner half
gets started
i console a lot
but
the low
is too stormy
i get engulfed
with a trap
of my own making
i recall your moments
with me
all the way
and
wonder
at the de facto casualty
i find no reply
but the trap goes on
may be your love
bring a note of diff
within me
around me
and i fall back
on your love
ignore the real world
but i know
it's another excuse
i accept the bubbles
of existence
and
of your love
with a patience
i do know
it's too ephemeral
and the other inning
of low spirits
surrounds
where i go
but i
a damn stupid chap
again say to my heart
let's try
this time
my love
it'll bring a solace
and thus
runs my day
night together
and i negotiate
my low quotient
Love!
how many times we encounter
the reality crunch at our heart
may be every next moment
we struggle our best
to evolve a little more
to find
a relative solution
at the least
downs and ups
make
a toss of our soul
and
we see in silence
the other end
may be too hauty
to appreciate
to get a hold of it
but yes love
at the heart of hearts
we
make a mirage
of our popcorn syndrome
wishes
may be too airy
but
they enthuse
a siprit
to prepare us
for another fight
and we forget
the results
the kickbacks too
yes love
that's what
i get of your popcorn syndrome
source inspiration: mallika sherawat live encounter with a dumpy old chap at a tv channel '....................................'
Love!
i'm a wanderer by thoughts
but too lazy
and when she comes to me
in her beautifull attire
i get enthused
for a little to do
to make her
a little more glamourous
and love to see
love to see her off
she comes too often
but too in haste
i make a cup of tea
for her
beautifull lips
she says, love!
hurry!
it's time to go
and i push up
some how consoling my heart
she will come back soon
and me
wait for her train
at a small raiway junction
nearby
she leaves me waiving her hands
i look into her eyes
and get lost
in Antarctica
i know
she has to go
too busy to have
a few more movements
i find me alone
as usual
go to nearby stall
have a cup of tea
and my navy cut
my heart wonders
why tea is too good
with her
without her
and i console my soul
with my navy cut
my heart
waits for
another
cup of tea
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, astha.b, pu chd india, govt medical college faridkot punjab, india
many a moments of your wait
and me a damn lazy and crazy guy
the exotic beauty of the day
and spicy heart with a oldy dumpy head
but love to see you
in and around
my love lane
it stretches at the wavelength of a heart
but love
have you heard
its nanons travel far too fast
it tumbles down
the einstein theroy of speed
some may know as theory of relativity
but my love
my equation
remains hooked to my love lane
your thoughts
and my heart
it querrels too often
with my dumpy head
as it says
you
going to insanity
but love
my love lane too adventuristic
to take your thoughts
and you know
i will say
a bit by bit
to know
your heart
and to have the time
stretched too far
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, cao's office ministry of defence, kan, bbps rohini delhi, dps rk puram new delhi, smiridhi minhas, govt medical college tanda hp , rajpath, pu chd india.
Love! have you ever heard of
two combine of biological clock and gene-ecology
and their dynamic control of our being, happy beings around
many psychiatry super-specialists of the world may have to scratch their head to make a sense of it
but love! the facts are too interesting and a heart is needed to decipher fine secrets of Mother Nature.
you can presume that a heart lies with you:
in toto we have only 2-3% active genome and rest is sleeping a sleep of 'kumbhkaran' of Ramanyana of Lord Rama.
but these miniscule %age genes are in active dynamic interaction with our live environs.
The active %age reaches 5% if dicussed inclusive of the concept of gene-language which is master controler of what we are and what we can visualize to have been or will be. (their is no field of knowledge which escapes its tentacular implications).
It controls our daily rhythmic biological entity inclusive of behavioural aspects and basic instincts. The direct implication is through hormonal dynamism of the bio-unit. The bio-logical clock translates the factor of time and space+geo-magnetism into our live activities. The gene-ecology further extends itself into varieability of biological existence.
In vivo environs ( natural labs of bio-world) the gene-ecology functions on the framwork of time,space,geo-magnetism, hetero-genosity,homogenosity(..genes combines sexually with compatible but with diff traits/similar('parallel')traits respectively),random selectivity+accumulative cofficient of genosides/-tides, and survival capabilities.
In otherwords the environs act upon genes to evolve their bio-chemistry and our own active dynamism is much to say in terms of psycho-socio-psychiatric traits/characteristics.
But how to control the dynamism of genotides'/-sides in vitro environs(controlled /lab-environs) is a real challenge to conceptualize and actualize: and a heart is needed to decipher the fine genesis of Nature's secrets.
And i presume heart lies with Mallika Sherawat.
(to be continued)
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, kan, pu chd. india
with a heart of millions of questions
i cross every eve
the vijay chowk
vip car honking is like your bangles' shrieks
bit by bit
the backdrop leaves a shadow of
what i know a little of
and
the shadow remains with me
of
your thoughts
i see around
with a new spirit
at my every breath
as if
you may be somewhere
near and around
my trees often say
love!
hei!
she is with us
i know they are jealous of me
and
my love
i say with docile nerves
yeh! i know
you support a beauty around
but
my beauty
may be some where
busy, as of now
they say somethin
i ignore a lot
as me and my heart
stumble back
thro' the love lane
of millions
rajpath
i see around
as if some one
may say
hei! you
she is here
source inspiration: shipra. v, pu chd india
love! have you ever heard
a source of eternity of provocation
which lies at our heart
i've often talked of gene-ecology and gene-language
both the aspects are hard to digest
and much more difficult
to know
Nature has kept its secrets
closely guarded
howsoever we may try hard
we land at a more cobwire of questions
and queries sumount us
but you know love
it's probably the start of starts
i have talked of eternal love too
the combine is relevant
it makes our life to breathe
and evoking spirit triggers this eternal love
that's why i say love is complete in itself
and i've linked it with popcorn syndrome of Mallika Sherawat
it's not because that she affiliates to bollywood
but it has far more deep roots in our psyche
well difinitely a heart is there
where popcorn syndrom lies
and love accompanies it
so is the evoking spirit
if you fail to make a sense out of it
i'll ask Mallika to elaborate
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, kan, rajpath, pu chd india
Love! how many of us know that we play to the tunes of our heart and instead get injured in the process. The instinctive behaviouralism gets us in further cob web of our own making and spend the rest of our lives in negotiating the freedom which never comes.
and love! nobody escapes this anigmatic syndrome of paradoxes
the truth is harsh to internalise.
religious excuses fill the vacuum at our hearts and the lofty love remains a distant far cry.
modern science of psychiatry has a greater role to play as the awakened ones suffer the most.
but how many of us have the privilege at their sides.
your ionosphere
and my thoughts
remain
hooked together
where i go
i search you
in and around me
and the hope
remains
perhaps
you're are there
the directions change
not the desire
and my breaths
resonate
while you may be there
and if not
you must be
getting
a glimpse of my waves
of my heart
source inspiration: shipra.v, pu chd india
i have known you
since eternity
but
when you got to know me
sun retired
i wished your nerves with equal combination of intensive rod and cone optic neurons
but i was sad to know Mother Nature was too constrained to opt for heterogenosity of traits
and i found with sad nerves that only love couldn't fetch the whole array of bio-divergent nanons
i waited in patience
for time less love
and the rhythm of shades and sun
to combine
to find
my love survive
the test of Nature
and my wait
goes on and on
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v,kan pu chd india
All the time i remain hooked to you
and your fingers
stumble upon
at a point
where my breath
gets sticked
til you come
and stumble again
sticky thoghts
and choice of mine
let me
once again
in cob-web
where my soul
search you hard
pulsating hard for its being
but thinks
better wait
for another nanonic movement
you may be somewhere
the shades and sun
laugh
at my innocence
and me
the bad guy of the day
looks for
your glimpse
late nights
whole world
forget
and sleep
and my heart and soul
listen
to the flow of traffic
on a nearby highway
may be
one vehicle
may come scraching halt
and you alight from
to meet
my soul and heart
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, pu chd india
howsoever i may try
reality crunch
finds me
lacking of
millions of horizons
and me a stupid dud
looks for excuses
all the way
and thro ' the clock
when it becomes
too hard to accept
i resign in your wait
thro' the thin air
of stratosphere
and my heart
looks for the nanons
coming
after touching you
and your aura
i get the frag
and get lost
in your cosy hair
my orchids
give a live ref of your being
around me
within me
to avoid
asking my brain
of hallucination
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, kan, pu chd, dps rk puran new delhi, bbps rohini delhi (india), my love lane -rajpath india gate india.
meri sanso mein tum ho
dekhta hu mei
nazar atei tum ho
bahut chaha
meri pass tum'
na aa sako
dil ke tar na jaan sako
kuch badla mei
vakat badal gaya
aur mein
kuch dekhta raha
i see you
and get an impulse
how we stand
tough and unison
but it's ephemeral
and shades away
as the sun retires
nights are too challenging
so i find my love
to come off
is the cycle so sturdy
to find me
at a receiving end
every eve
i ask my self
and as ususal the reply is too hard to find
i see around
and get the scenario
not diff
a soothing air
thro' my windows
comes straight to my heart
and i get
another challenge
i wonder
is it so
and find
may be
it's the way
to find her
and her glimpse around
source inspiration: shipra.v
I know you
since my univ days
but today
i know nothin of me
you know love
why
i lost my-self
in my univ
as
i left you
in my univ
and till day
i live in univ days
we a spoilt lot
of my univ products
but my love
yeah! my univ
till date
comes to me
and asks
how are you
damn fool
i see
into her eyes
she looks
more
like me
like you
and i live in my univ
and you
yeah! love
you see
love and
at first sight
and that with your univ
it's beyond
but i love to live
beyond
as you live there
source inspiration: neha c'. sapce
Love!
you're a note of euphoria
for my soul
you know
me a too docile
and you the agile
combine is too good
i have very contrast
in my being
mine is three- in-one
and the fourth remains addicted with my love
i'll tel you of my love
but she is too scary of
gallery
of nerves
of words
and the mobs
i do miss my love and you too
you know love
why
it's too exotic with you
only my heart knows
a little of you
and my bullshit brain
a damn packed
funky bag
of psychiatric medicines
bu love
my soul
it's like
my sweat heart
and that's
why
it remains hooked to my beauty queen
but who is she
i'll take a lot
of time
of space
to tell you
a bit of her
source inspiration ; neha c'.s space
i remember my social studies
and the things are quite diff
when put in abstract perspective(ism)
and if you remember our sufi saints of yester time
probably its much more evident
they pointed to find
god with you
and only within you
and today religious stalwarts
often talk of vicious habitual and instinctive traits
while they do know
they are part of the cycle
well making god and god related processes too spicy serves many a purposes
and it's by default, to find every one of us forget the gist
and get lost in rhetoric of obsecure connotations surrounding our lives
but my heart often asks me
damn it yaar
you stick to your god
and my love
and love of love
yeah it seems to be a better occupation source
well! finding a way off obscurantism is a good excuse
but it makes a sense for the few initiated ones
but let it be the choice of love
to find it one
or ignore the same
source inspiration: neha c'.s space
when time and space get too heavy on my nerves
and all of my knowledge goes steer-free
i look to a glimpse
of your being around
morning and eve hrs
i know you a too busy bee around
and me
i make busy my soul
heart and bullshit brain together
in your thoughts
my brain is too horrible
it says: i hope you are'nt 'bisham-pitamaha' -of 'mahabharta'
i look to my stale brain
i do ask it
you see even apples when stale - are too stinky to tolerate
and my brain retorts back
i have been to himachal pardesh (india) many a times
i again rebuff its way of annoying me
you know love
i know a better lot
you see
even your own beings
are too jealous of your love
i love seeing the people deep in jealous
my brain too stormy to react
and says
fools always make their own
castles
may be
in windy airs
source inspiration : neha c'. s space
There is human tendency to find rose gardens every where they happen to visit. But stark reality is that lady luck smiles on a privileged few. And it's not always true that conducive or rosy environs enthuse confidence rather less exposure to outer world and challenging time makes a person more prone to introvert instinctive behavioral patterns. It is the extrovert traits in one's thoughts and actions that we develop confidence and start learning intuitively how to negotiate the hostile enviorns and come out triumphant. Sucess is not a straight equation/even Eienstein took a great pains and courage to proove that e=1/2mv(SUARE). And we ofcourse, know that this is not always true in space parlains.
TECHNICALLY WE CAN SAY THAT SELF-CONFIDENCE IS CONSTRUCTIVE SELF-HYPNOSIS ON THE MOTHERBOARD OF KNOWLEDGE OF MECHANISM GOVERNING THE PROCESS UNDER CONSIDERATION
(TO BE CONTINUED)
source inspiration: neha c'. space
you come like this flying angel
straight into my heart
and its nanons gets exonerated of its shackles
i wonder at the consequences
and it does at my docile nerves
i have tried many times
to visualize you
in my live environs
without any epitomizing factor
i know it's far too airy
and impractical too
but
my heart never puts on hold
it goes on and on
me a poor chap with it
look for another simely
to make a acceptable
enviorns of some consequences
but it pulsate to hard
to negotiate the ground
i see around
you come
and go
and give me
another challenge
like this flying angel
i struggle again
to find
some
may a remotely accurate
but you see love
my excellence
is a pit of hole
too empty
to shallow
to absorb
your aura
and you come
with
a thunderous applause
and i look for
another
may be
this time
with a more viable alternate
but i do know
you're too exotic
for my being around
like this angel
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, shipra.v, kan, pu chd india
Inequality is a distastefull conotation in its very begining
but how many of us know
inequality is a strong driving force
to evoke a horrible impulse in many of us
it's sadistic quotient
and if greek wild fire of yesterday is to be examined in totality
it becomes an immediate handy proof to what is said aforesaid
I was wondering
whether this phenomenon
is responsible
for american and australian continent wild fire
the reason and reply points to an emphatic 'yes'
well surveillance authorities has a limiting factor
well inbuilt in the system itself
as i often talk of great Darwin theory of number will match number
and it's far relevant today
the direct gist comes out to be
better be vigilant of your interests
and politics of poverity should not be allowed to sway your qualitative dicision making process of your brain
You know even writers sucummb to this vicious instinct
of writing and glorifying sympathetic behaviouralism
all related to poverty
and the basic intention is to sell the product
as I always stick to my Darwin theory like a default in my software of my bio-system
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, cnn
today i was busy with my friends at lunch hrs
